Do you ever wake up and think today I’m going to tear down all these walls holding me back and truly go after all my dreams? Only to end the day promising yourself tomorrow you’ll really try. Yeah, I’m sure you do. But why don’t you? For me it’s because I worry far too much about trying to make those who should love me but don’t, to actually care. It began with my dad, he never loved me enough to stick around and even though I’m heartbroken, I’m a stronger person because of it. I will always love him, it’s unconditional and I have no control over that but it’s time I move on with my life, he’s not coming back. I wake up every day and face people who should care that just don’t and I thank God for giving me strength to finally move on with my life. Yet, there are people in my life who challenge my strength every second of the day. It’s true no one wants to see anyone else happy when they are miserable and they are miserable even if they don’t realize it. I hate to say it but it’s the “Christians” and the “high society” people who are the worst people in the world for me to deal with. I do consider myself a Christian but I stand behind it without throwing it in others faces, you can’t just call on God when you, yourself fail. God sees and hears everything some “Christians” tend to forget that. It’s what is in your heart that counts. Then there’s the “socialites” who have the fake smile practically painted on their faces, who present this fake personality like it’s an art. I find it heartbreaking those who spend their lives pretending they are so “perfect” when they are the saddest people on the planet. Life isn’t and never will be about who has the most money or who the most attractive person in the world is. Gosh, I feel so hostile and that’s not a feeling I want but fake people get under my skin. Let’s just say you should watch who’s around you before you talk bad about me because I might just find out. Thankfully, I know how one person in my life feels about me now…so I can finally quit pretending to give a damn because honestly I don’t, now I have no reason to pretend. One less person holding me back from what I want. Watch your back; you may not realize that some of those close to you carry knives…

xoxo Kayla

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